Posted by madwand on September 12, 2003, at 11:34:34
In reply to Please advice/feedback/guidance, posted by galkeepinon on September 12, 2003, at 6:07:13
Gal,
>'m a total people person and want so bad to >contribute to this world, and I have failed, and it >hurts to know I have wasted the last 10 or 11 years >not being *well* enough to do so.By whose standards have you failed? You have contributed a heck of a lot to this group, and that certainly extends to a lot of "lurkers" whom you probably don't even know about.
I wonder something (my apologies if this is out of line). Intellectually you know that depression is a disease, but it sounds like at some gut level you buy into it as some kind of "fault". If you had cancer and had a relapse you might fuss and fume at it interfering with your life (I think we all would), but you wouldn't beat yourself up over it would you?
In other words, just a gentle reminder that you have an *illness* and sometimes it takes time and patience to get over the bumps. It is clear to me just from what I have seen on this board what a compassionate, loving person you are, and if you were standing in front of me I would give you a big hug right now. You have nothing to feel guilty about.
poster:madwand
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