Posted by Arrianna on September 1, 2003, at 14:30:47
In reply to I am an alcoholic on Lexapro, I need help please, posted by Panic_attack on August 28, 2003, at 15:50:11
> I am only 22 years old and know that I am going to die soon. I can feel it. I have been drinking for years and I can't stop. I have tried. I have hospitalized myself several times with no positive outcome. I recently got fired from my job so now I am drinking more than ever. Too much time on my hands. I never feel good. After I drink, I suffer with extremely bad panic/anxiety. It is more like Depersonalization. It's horrible. I recently started taking Lexapro and ever since I started taking it, I get cravings for alcohol more than ever!!! Lexapro makes me want to drink daily. I know that I am going to need LONG TERM inpatient treatment. I have too or else I am going to die. I self medicate myself daily.... like right now I am going to take a tiny piece of Remeron so I can fall asleep. I feel horrible. I got drunk last night and now im having these weird like depersonalazation feelings. Has anybody ever overcome heavy drinking? especially while on medication? Am I always going to be a drunk :( Anybody know any good alcohol rehabs? What should I do... :(
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I REALLY feel for you. I just posted about this and now I find your post!! I am also a recovering alcoholic/addict. Been in AA on and off since 1995. Just had 10mos. sobriety before drinking this weekend. Started out with just a couple of drinks Thrs. nite, then by Fri. nite, I was drinking like I used to: couldn't quit!!That nite of drinking has resulted in a 3day "hangover" so far. I'm also taking lex and am not sure if my long hangover is a result of that or just because I'm an alcoholic. Whatever the case, it can't be good for me or us to drink on AD's.
I read you were going to go to an AA meeting. Did you make it? You WILL find much support and help there! You will find people who have been where you're at and now live happily in recovery. There are people who care about you. You can make it.
Treatment, too, may be a wise choice for you now if you can find a program: inpatient and outpatient. I know too well the dark state you find yourself in. Before I entered in treatment in 1995, (I was 20 yrs. old), I wanted to die!! I felt like I already had, and I was dead emotionally and spiritually.
I feel hypocritical for saying this since I just relapsed: but, you can get your life back!! You can feel alive again! It's hard work, but so worth it. I and many others have experienced wonderful recovery and living without alcohol.
Give you much credit for seeking help. I think someone else posted that's the first step. It really is. From this point, just continue doing the next right thing one day at a time. It may not feel this way now, but you are really lucky to seek help so young. You have the rest of your life ahead of you!!
Hugs,
Arrianna
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