Posted by KimberlyDi on July 29, 2003, at 15:50:22
In reply to Trauma induced derealization, posted by natas4u on July 26, 2003, at 17:03:17
I must have missed the beginning of this. Are we talking about disassociating? Someone once mentioned a disassociative disorder to me. It isn't a complete blackout or shutdown, but a purely emotional shutdown. Life too painful? Turn off emotions.
Who is that man standing in front of me yelling in my face? Why, it's my husband. Do I care? No, though I wish I could adjust the volume lower. Now he's screaming that he hates when I get that *look* on my face. Hmm, interesting, didn't realize I had a "shut down" expression, mentally file that to analyze later. Hmmm, if he hits me, I'll probably have to leave.
That was my first experience with an emotional shutdown. Someone in a later post mentioned "detached" which brought back that memory. I divorced that husband. I flipped back and forth between caring and not caring for years. Shutting off whenever I felt threatened. Then I was permanently OFF. Strangely enough, it was the purchase of 2 pomeranian puppies that taught me how to feel and give unconditional love again. That and alot of therapy and self-awareness of my mind/heart's strange ways of defending itself.
If I'm off the subject, sorry for rambling. But thanks for letting me vent.
KDi in Texas> Ok people. I've gone through plenty of stuff on derealization and find it is a state of mind that may be triggered from several causes, from enviromental to inherent. I would like to find and talk to people how think they are trauma induced derealization, as i believe that different triggerings need different cures. I know I am derealized because some time I feel the intensity of reality. For what I sea people get derealized from their realized world. Myn case is the other way arround. Any one like this? My normal state is derealization and I am pretty much use to it, although now that i don't have to fear child abuse and I can go on i want to do so. I will do so. I have experienced that when evere derealiztion is lighter I tend to get panic atacks and ansiety. I am now trying to convince my body to go head on with the panic atacks and prove it that I don't need derealization any more. Does this make any sense to any body? I have some PTSS i guess. Any body like this? i think it is very important to keep a similar triggering effect between the ones that might talk so we don't get confused with other problems and solve ours more effectlively. Please, when you come in give a description of derealization and give a hint of why you may think you triggered it (waht triggered you to panic and therefor what triggered you to avoid panic with the mind fog. Hope som one answers....
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