Posted by starlight on June 18, 2003, at 14:41:56
In reply to Starlight--Same problem!, posted by fluffy on June 18, 2003, at 12:00:53
Hi Katy,
It's really interesting to me. Even when I'm depressed, I can still have a lot of energy, but just notice all the terrible things, or have more suicidal ideation. It's like running and thinking things are hopeless and wondering what in the hell I'm doing here at the same time. I can still get things accomplished, though it might take a bit more for me to get motivated, I can still operate.The rapid cycling thing is still something I'm getting used to, but as I look back I can definitely see the pattern.
Even as I look back into my youth and early twenties I can see serious swings from elated to seriously depressed, though I would say that I've suffered overall from more depression than elation. The best was the morning I woke up and was literally buzzing with great energy. Loved it, loved life and felt amazing. It made me feel like those sales seminars when the speaker says he bounces up in the morning looking forward to getting to work and starting his day. But that was on wellbutrin........bummer that had to stop. Bummer! I liked that feeling, would like that to happen every day.
Hormones definitely have an effect. I've never, ever been able to take birth control pills, no matter what the dose specifically for the reason that they throw me down like nobody's business. Horrible mental side effects for me. It doesn't take long either, about 5 days and I'm done. It's too bad really, because it would be nice to not have to use condoms, but cest la vie'.
I would like to know about rapid cyclers.
starlight
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