Posted by leeran on June 16, 2003, at 1:08:31
In reply to Obsessively looking - leeran, posted by BekkaH on June 16, 2003, at 0:58:07
BekkaH,
Thanks so much for your input! I've wondered about the Adderall . . . more than anything else - I think this has to do with feeling so out of control right now and basically being in limbo until this is all settled with what will be happening.
After "running the show" for fifteen years, I suddenly feel like I've been forced onto the sidelines and I find myself doing "things" to try to combat what I guess would be described as a feeling of dysphoria.
Re: combinations - yes, my psychiatrist changes dosages one at a time.
I actually think I would have been much further along had this incident not cropped up so suddenly. It's really thrown me off track.
My husband finally intervened on my most destructive behavior on Friday evening (no, not drinking/smoking or drugs - but something that is, indeed, self-destructive and obsessive). He mentioned therapy - as did my mom tonight on the phone - but my psychiatrist really doesn't think that I need therapy (I suppose my years in sales have made it easy for me to put on a "happy face" when I'm out and about).
Thanks so very much for replying, and moreover, thanks for your comments on my writing.
I went to college with a creative writing scholarship, but then I fell in the advertising end of the business and now - after many years in that profession - I am totally burnt out and tired of what I do.
Writing is often a way to ease my angst and finally, in my early forties, I see the real value in journaling.
Thanks again!
Lee
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