Posted by Squiggles on May 29, 2003, at 9:10:02
Hi,
I am of two minds on the treatment of mental
illness for many reasons i have given here
before - some having to do with the controversies
on the net, others ideological, and others personal
uncertainties and doubts.I am tilting towards the "hard-core" medical
treatment side though, after seeing the great
results of Remeron on my friend's mental and
emotional health. The improvement is so great
that i am heartened to see chemistry alleviate
human sufferring. I just wish it was chosen from
the beginning of the dx, some 20 yrs. ago.Better late than never.
I am not so sure of my own dx, and have often
wondered if it was not Valium w/d. My SO says
no way - any outside observer could tell something
was seriously wrong.Anyway, my problem has been mostly that my
parents have put me in conflict with my doctor,
always putting my doctor down and denying that
there is anything wrong with me. To add to this
stress, i feel that i am expected to play the
role of a perfectly socially capable and ambitious
"winner". I know i am perceived as a loser.
There are also historical problems which i can
no longer cope with -- as just the memory makes
me sick with stress. I just want to crawl into
a hole and hide.This puts a lot stress on me - i can't handle it.
Sometimes it makes my head feel really funny from
the stress.Should i discuss this somewhere else or, does anyone
have this problem - the denial and the attempt
to live up to that denial?Thanks.
Squiggles
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