Posted by blkvettes on May 23, 2003, at 13:21:42
In reply to Re: Depressed? Me? gimme my lexapro!! Ha! » blkvettes, posted by lil' jimi on May 23, 2003, at 11:54:07
> hey WAYNE!
>
> > .....
> >GOOD LUCK AND TAKE CARE!!!!!!
> > WAYNE
> >A special shout to lil jimi, are you sure you suffer from depression!!!! TAKE CARE!!!!
> > ......
>
> "are you sure you suffer from depression"?
>
> you know, recently i have taken that question seriously!
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> i have always asked anyone who'd listen why they thought i was depressed .... i have never really felt like i felt depressed.
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> but my wife really does know me better than i do, which is not all that hard to do, and i can depend on her and her prespective .... and she and my gp agree....... so what do *i* know?
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> actually, i have noticed that i do feel great ....
> and i'm even starting to think about getting the motivated/initative/productive-thing i have been missing, up and going again .... that has been my big weakness (aka The symptom of my 'depression').
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> but lately i have been way cheerful .... to the point that i have wondered about being "over-medicated".... i Am so way Not sad now.
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> (there have also been some things that have happened, independent of lexapro, which have been wonderful in my life, which *should* contribute to me having my positive mood, and for which i am grateful if dismayed somewhat .... i think it may be for the best if i don't bore the folks (some of whom have suffered immense tragedies) with my good news, which even though it's good, i'm still not handing real well .... (?))
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> i'm imagining my own form of depression is not a mood disorder now so much as a motivational dysfunction ..... eh, maybe.
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> in fact lately i have been annoyingly cheerful to the point that i have gotten complaints!
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> now i think i'll just keep on keeping on here and if anyone complains too much .....
> well, shouldn't i just beat the crap out of them, if they can't take a joke?
> and
> doesn't that help me vent that weird underlying rage that seems to never go away?
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> on 2nd thought, i don't think i'll cut back on the lex ....... right now anyway.
>
Hi Jim, sometimes I have to read your posts twice to figure out what the heck your talking about. Do you see a pdoc? I would love to sit in on one of your sessions. As far as your motivation dysfunction, I feel this is my problem right now. But I did get a haircut today and went in 2 stores and have gained interest in my over all appearance again. This is the first haircut in over 7 months. Dont worry Jim, I have always had long hair. Women say they wish they had my hair. But Im slowly getting motivation and regaining that zest for life in spite of all that goes on around me. You just keep posting and I will keep trying to figure out what your talking about. TAKE CARE!!!!!!!
WAYNE
> peace to you, wayne, and
> TAKE CARE !!!!!!!!
> ~ jim
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