Posted by falconman on March 18, 2003, at 9:32:47
In reply to falconman.. A bit of your time ???, posted by Dragonslayer on March 18, 2003, at 7:01:14
Hi,
I know how scary it can be to drop off a drug like Klonopin, but I also understand the need to find out what your like drug free. I Kept finding myself blaming my medication for my emotions(or the lack of them more like) and my bland personality that I didn't perceive to be correct for me.
I found once I'd got down to 1mg, (75%reduction) I was much more anxious and panicky outside the house(sociallising went to pot),however with close familly I felt more like myself. I got a little sense of humour back, me and my sister would play around together, something I hadn't done for months, I played guitar for the first time in ages. Yeh, in ways I felt better although I still had a pretty profound emotional numbness. Although I didn't feel great, I was able to act around familly which I didn't have the energy to do before.
However since I've come completely off it, there's been a sudden change for the worse. I haven't left the house(9 days now) and I'm starting to feel distressed by depersonalization and free floating anxiety 24/7.
You've caught me at a point where I'm fairly lost as to what next step to take.However if you think the Klonopin could be dampening down your emotional well being,(and if your anything like me)unless you give reducing the dose a go you might always be asking yourself if you are missing out.
At the end of the day you can always put the dose back up if it isn't too sucessfull.Have you got the 0.5mg klonopin tabs, because you can split them into four 0.125 pieces(if i got my maths right). I don't see the need for titrating doses with a liquid preperation.
Remember when you first come off, give it a good 2 weeks before you start gaging how you feel. I've heard someone on here say that it took them as long as 6 weeks for it to be rid of her system.
I think there's a lot of psychological addiction to benzo's too. If your used to using it just before you go to bed, its only natural for your subconcious to be telling you that you won't be able to sleep without it.
Try and relax about the whole thing as much as possible, and remember I came all the way down from 4mg in about 5 weeks. My last drop to nothing was directly from 0.25mg. If you do it sensibly (unlike mysely) you shouldn't really have most of the withdrawel I describe.
Best of luck and let me know how you get on, I'm sure it'll be easier than you perceive. ANXIETY won't kill you!!
Peace
Falcon
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