Posted by pumpkin on March 17, 2003, at 12:56:12
In reply to Anyone switched to Lexapro? « ggrrl, posted by Dr. Bob on June 11, 2002, at 7:52:48
Hey Guys,
I'm down right now, so I went to this sight.
I belong to a Christian depression group, and
have tried to write on the message board, but
there's not much going right now. Everyone is
going out of town, or is busy, or is having
problems- in which I keep in touch, and pray.
I know that the Lord hears our prayers. They
are "sweet smelling fragrances" in His sight!One thing that the Lord shows me time and time
again is that I can't go on "feelings" all the
time. I would be in terrible trouble if I went
on my feelings! Being a Christian- I have to
ask the Lord to help me to stick by what He says
is His Word. It's hard- especially when I am
depressed and feel crazy! One of my favorite
scriptures (I can't find right now-forgive me)-
I shall not die, but live and declare the works
of the Lord! His Holy Spirit gave this scripture
to me years ago, and may it never leave my thoughts!Thank you for Romans 8:28! This has been coming
to mind too, but "jumbled" alittle. It's so hard
right now, but I know that the Lord is holding
me and rocking me gently.I found it! Philipians 1:6. Being confident
of this very thing, that he which hath begun
a good work in you will perform it until the day
of Jesus Christ.If it wasen't for the Lord calling me, and not
giving up on me- I would be in hell. This, I know!I've lost 7 children. My only son was born
dead- at full term. During one of my emergency
D&C's (sorry men), my doctor botched up, and cut
my uteris, and colon. I was wide awake! I had
an I.V. in my hand- but nothing but glucose was
going through. I knew that something was wrong,
and kept looking at the clock. I asked my doc
when it was going to be done, and she told me
that we were really just getting started. Within
the next five or so minutes- I started to feel
real hot and sweaty. The next thing I knew was
extreme pain. I started calling out "Jesus, Jesus,
Jesus", and with that I passed out. When I woke
up, I couldn't see my husband, but I could feel
his presence. I kept asking him to promise to
take care of the children. Finially, he answered
and said that he would. With that, I let go!
I did die. I remember it so vividly! I didn't
want to come back. I was surrounded by the Lord,
and we were one with each other. It was so
beautiful! There was perfect peace, joy and love
(nothing you can experience here!). He was taking
me up to Glory! The next thing I remember was
my husband by my side, and I was in pain. They
told me to push this button if the pain was bad.
I remember doing it over and over again!
I didn't want to come back at all, but the Lord
knew that my girls would need me in the future-
and they have. If people tell me that there isen't a "literal" hell- I know that as long as
you ask the Lord Jesus to come into your heart-
there is a "literal" heaven! So, I don't doubt
a "literal" hell either! And I don't believe
in a "in between" state either! People can think
what they want, but I know what the Lord allowed!
Even my doctor (who was passing out at my legs)
heard "What you've started- you must finish".
If she would proceeded with the D&C the next day-
I would have bled to death. No, I never sued
her either. She came face to face with our Lord
in that operating room. This turned out to be
a true blessing from the Lord! She couldn't
deny the Lord anymore!I believe that the Lord "allows" things to happen,
to spread His message of hope through His son.
He could stop any and every thing that is bad.
Someday, in His timing, He will. But for now,
He is carrying us through these waves. Anything
good out of it is for His kingdom- not ours!
One step at a time... That's all He asks. This
is all He allows us to walk. This is all we can
handle, and our Father knows!Since you guys are also my brothers and sisters
in the Lord, please keep my family and me in your
prayers. I will continue to keep you guys in my
prayers also. My mom is not doing so well, and
we are going to bring her down to live with us.
We have a small little townhouse without a basement, but I know that the Lord wants me to
take care of her. I thank Him that I can serve
Him in this capacity. Although, she's not the
easiest person to please! Anyway, I know that
the Lord has a sense of humor too! This is going
to be something! I can't even get her up when
she falls. With the Lords help- I'll have to
make something to help with this job.I thought that Neurotin was a mood stabilizer.
I think I was on that. Now, I'm on Depakote.
I really don't know what "it's" doing, but I
guess it's doing something! I've been on it for
almost a year- since my "vacation(s)" at the
local hospital! It's weird that we all have these
chemicals of serotonin, etc.., but that we are
all such made of different "make-up". What goes
with one, doesn't go with another. We are all
made by the Lord with such a different inner
design- although we all crave the same kind of
of closeness with the Lord!Before I sign off, does anyone know anything
about digital camera's? We would like to find
out more about them. I have a 35, in which I
love to take pictures, but for the rest of the
family (I won't let them use my camara-I'm
selfish!), they want to get one. Price is a
factor as well as quality! I'm a yard sale,
thrift store person. I have to be at this time.I pray that I haven't crossed the web site
guidelines, since I've written about other things
besides my med.!I don't want to loose this message too, so I'm
going to run. Besides that- I'm hungry and have
to grab something.A great week to you all!
P.S. My thanks to Dr. Bob and his associates for
a job well done on the quiz at the beginning- to
be able to post messages! It took me forever,
because I'm not to good with tests, quizes, and
such. The next day that I tried it though- I
got through! A good lesson for when I go back
to college!
poster:pumpkin
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