Posted by Edgefield on March 15, 2003, at 21:36:40
In reply to RE: Another newcomer, posted by pumpkin on March 15, 2003, at 21:14:31
*******Pumpkin, thank you for your testimony. It's so good to hear from other Christians. I found it very encouraging. Praise God that you are recovering. You will get better. I was on Lexapro, it is a good med., but I am doing better on Prozac and Neurontin. I pray that we will all be blessed with health and peace.
God Bless
Edgefield
> I have been reading the messages that you guys
> have been posting, and decided to write myself.
>
> I was stabilized on meds. for over 10 years, but
> my whole world fell apart about 2 years ago.
>
> The "quack" doctor I had at the time took me
> off "cold turkey", and I listened, because at that
> time I was very gullable?
>
> Since then, I have been tried on so many meds..
> I had to be hospitalized twice, and went through
> 9 shock treatments. It's been very very hard
> alot, but I know that the Lord has a purpose
> for me, and He has been my strength through it
> all!
>
> Needless to say, I was diagnosed as Bi-Polar
> (runs in family), but my new doctor still has
> doubts.
>
> I knew that I was going to go off my meds., and
> talked to my doctor about it. He helped me to
> get off my anti-depressant, and we were working
> on my mood stabilizer. I thought that I had been
> in enough pain, and I was willing to risk again
> to bring my body back to "normal" to see what
> exactly was going on. It's terrible to not feel
> yourself!
>
> Meanwhile, my counselor called me, and told me
> of a med that might help. I was hesitant (not
> another!), but I prayed- and knew that he, and
> many others have been praying, so I kept it in the
> back of my mind.
>
> I went down more on my mood stabilizer, and believe me- it was hard! But worth it. I was
> returning, I knew it, but something was not right.
> I couldn't see the "mania", but I was getting
> more deeply depressed. This scared me alittle-
> but I went on,through alot of talking (prayer)
> to the Lord.
>
> Went to my doctors, and told him that I cry over
> ANYTHING! I told him what my counselor had said,
> and we met at a common ground. I would try one
> more time (he left the decision to me) with this
> anti-depressant (Lexapro). His decision was not
> to go down anymore on my mood stabilizer. I
> agreed. Came home and prayed again. I was scared, but decided to try it.
>
> I tried 5mg. since my system is so very sensitive.
> Felt weird, and started to panic alittle, but
> I knew that I would have to ride it out. The
> next day, I felt weird still, but something was
> changing. Still depressed, my stomach bothered
> me alittle, and I was going to just forget it!
>
> Again, I prayed, and decided to try just one more
> night. Took another dose and couldn't get to
> sleep. Oh no! I did finially get to sleep.
>
> The next day, I still felt weird, but I woke up
> earlier. My stomach didn't bother me as much.
> Oh yeah- the "flu" like symptoms started to leave
> also. I did eat alittle more. BUT- I felt better! I even got some work done around the
> house! I decided not to get my hopes up to high
> though (that is hard-especially when your feeling
> better)!
>
> Around 4 p.m., I started to get really "hyper"
> and couldn't think straight. My mood went down,
> and I couldn't sleep. I decided that since my
> doctor was thinking about uping my mood stabilizer, I would listen to what he wanted to
> do. I uped my stabilizer, and went to bed. No
> problems really about getting to sleep.
>
> DUMB IDEA! The next day was BAD! I was so
> depressed! I couldn't get out of it the whole
> day! Lord, help me! I went back on my usual
> dose of stabilizer, and called my doctor. He
> isen't good for calling back- no matter what. I
> have called him maybe 3-4 times in the last 2
> years. Anyway...
>
> Today, I have been so tired. Thank the Lord that
> it is the weekend. I had to take a nap today.
> I fought it and fought it. I have neck problems,
> and think that the med also has a side effect
> which triggers it, but nothing that a Tylenol
> won't help with. My appetite is better too. I
> kinda feel that I've wasted a beautiful day, but
> that's the way it goes. Usually, I'm pretty
> much up and around with my family, but they know
> that I go through these times.
>
> My main concern is that I don't want to get "hyper" again. I hate not being able to
> sleep. I went through that with the last anti-
> depressant. But the blessing is that if I do-
> I know that I'm probably Bi-Polar, and be helped
> the way I should. All this time, no one could
> get a decent "grasp" on what has been going on.
> My family past has been hidden by alcohol, and
> it's been hard. Now, however, everything is
> coming out to the open. Thank the Lord!
>
> Anyway, I hope that what I've said so far is
> making some sort of sense. Emotionally, I'm
> feeling pretty good again. One step at a time!
> I'll continue to write as long as I can. Feel
> free to e-mail back. Thanks for your messages!
> I do want to say that I wish that all doctors
> would send their patients to the net. I was
> going to just quit- until I read some of the
> messages that were posted! Alot of my problems
> were "symptoms" of the sickness. I never would
> have known that without you guys!
>
> Thanks, and may our Lord bless you and your week!
>
>
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