Posted by jonh kimble on March 11, 2003, at 4:56:32
In reply to re:so sad, posted by Maeryn on March 10, 2003, at 17:28:00
Thanks so much everyone. At least there are some people alivewho understand. i would love to talk with you guys but its really hard. (or impossible) social withdrawl is so big with me I dont think I could really keep in touch but I want to so bad. My social anxiety is wierd. Im not really afraid of people ( at first), Im just unable to interact. (unable to show care, enthusiasm, dont ever talk) and I know this makes others think I dont like them, because that is exactly what it looks like. but there are people I so badly want to be friends, including you guys. I know how to interact but it is a constent struggle. I have tried nardil at 60mgs for 4 wks and it did nothing. also a whack of other meds but dexedrine and ritalin are the only ones that helped, but i built up a tolerance in a day or two and i became suicidally depressed on the come down.
also I hate every second of my job. the money is not worth my life, but i cant move in with that guy unless I work. are there any community places are social programs that could offer me a place to stay? I dont mind if its not nice and I dont expect any money, just a place to live so I can get the help I need. This is really my only hope. (i live in canada) thanks again
poster:jonh kimble
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