Posted by Rainbowlight on February 19, 2003, at 0:31:34
In reply to Re: Ritch » Rainbowlight, posted by Ritch on February 18, 2003, at 23:21:16
"Yes, Interesting. Yes, maybe people are seeing that "clean slate (no rumination) mind as numbness. I would just describe it as "quiet!" LOL! I guess mine was more like looking through rose colored glasses at the world. I wonder what the clinical term for that is. Now the rose colored glasses are off, yuck! Perhaps I was manic of some sort?"
p.s. I was describing the ending of rumination in my head as "quiet", wasn't referring to mania being "quiet".
Anways, my mood cycling seems to be well under control but I tend to obsess alot still. Mostly about extended family. Things my Dad says to me, or sister does to me. Just everyday dysfunctional family stuff that just gets under my skin. I don't know why I let it bother me so much. It's just like a broken record that plays round and round in my head. I figure I am 34, this crap shouldn't bother me anymore, but it does. That's why I like the ZOloft/Remeron because I DIDN'T care about this crap. It was like "Oh Well!" This illness just seems to haunt me day after day. Isn't it tiring to try to live with and figure out?
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