Posted by bee happy on February 3, 2003, at 21:41:44
In reply to Bee Happy/ Bupenorphrine, posted by kara lynne on February 3, 2003, at 13:41:45
Hi Kara. No I don 't mind repeating this story. I have always suspected that there must be other people out there with the same "mu" deficiency. And this board has shown me that i am not alone.The reason I come back to the board is to help people like you who might be in the hellish place I was 6 months ago. I started with .3 mgs 3x's daily. And gradually increased to 2 mgs 4x's daily over a 3 month period. I am now leveling off to 2mg 3 x's daily. I read everything I could I find about this drug. Especially the opiate addiction treatment information. Heroine addicts are prescribed anywhere from 4mg to 32 mg.per day. It was sort of a silly matter of pride that I not take any more than the lowest dose a "junkie" would take. But as I said in my last opus....am I just an ex opiate addict on buprenorphine maintainence or a depressive on the only drug that makes me feel life is worth living. The psychologist,psychiatrist, and my family doctor all agree that it is a valid treatment for my depression. In fact the Psychologist is so sure that my problem was chemical and satisfied with the results that she has suspended our sessions unless I feel I need to talk . Again...this does not make me euphoric...it makes me feel the way i percieve other "normal" people feel. Interested in things, Anxious to wake up and get into the new day whatever it will bring. I have a wonderful life. I had a wonderful life before I started taking this drug but it wasn't wonderful to me...I couldn't feel it. I couldn't feel anything! Except horrible guilt for not wanting to get out of bed in the morning.And quilt also for suspecting that I might be a drug addict.I do not worry about that label now. If I am a drug addict then so is the cancer patient or the diabetic....or the thyroid patient..you gt my point. I care enough about others who might be suffering to offer my experience in hopes that it might help. I am soooo grateful to be here to do it. I know it is not for everyone...but for anyone who ever felt more normal than high on opiate pain killers...it might be worth looking into.
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