Posted by mikhail99 on January 30, 2003, at 18:19:00
In reply to Wellbutrin and tantrums, posted by ricardo on January 30, 2003, at 17:28:09
> Hi!
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> I've always been impulsive and I have always (ever since I was a child) had this tendency to show my anger physically (not violence against other people, but by throwing objects against the wall and this kind of thing). Some people say that it's because I'm an Aries... In my struggle with depression, I've had some different kinds of tantrums... Especially, the ones related to self-deprecation, or self-humiliation. To be more precise, things like getting down on my knees, in tears, begging somebody to make love to me so I wouldn't feel rejected. It did happen once. I wish I could forget that! These are moments when I really thought as though I was losing control. When I first started on Paxil, I thought that I was more level, or as if there was elastic bed (I really don't know what you call that in English) keeping me from falling, or from going too low. I don't think I had one single breakdown while on it. However, I asked my doctor to put me off it, since the sexual side-effects had really been a problem for me, as well as it put me to sleep all day long. She substituted Wellbutrin. I was ecstatic when she put me on it. I would treat my depression, as well as lose weight, have more energy and all the rest of it. Right from the start, I had a big breakdown when having an argument with somebody. I was shocked at how violent that was (but, please, don't think that I threatened somebody's life or anything like that; what I did do was to hurt myself, by slapping my face real hard!) Now, I'm facing a relapse of my depression. This afternoon, I felt terrible and, once again, I had one of those breakdowns. This time, I did not express it physically. I kept it to myself, but the feeling was that I was exploding. I thought I was not going to survive that! I could only feel some relief when I started crying non-stop. By boyfriend left me alone and said he's tired of living with a "crazy" person like me. He said he's leaving me for good this time. Anyway, my question is, could it be the Wellbutrin that is causing these violent reactions. One thing is for sure: I'm not taking that pill tomorrow or on any of the following days, until my appointment with my pdoc on Wednesday. I'd love to know what your thoughts are... (and I feel terrible ashamed for having written this post...)
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> Cheers,
> RicardoRicardo, PLEASE don't feel ashamed about having written that post!! We all have our awful, lowest moments and it's very brave of you to share them here. I took 150 mg of wellbutrin 2x a day and it made me SO irritable, I couldn't stand myself or anyone else so my pdoc put me on 100 mg 2x a day and my anger and irritability decreased quite a bit. I'm a bit disappointed with the dose because I'm not as alert as I was on the higher dose but I figured I couldn't go around chewing everyone's ass ALL the time! :-)
Anyway, I'm curious what your dose is? And just be cautious about stopping the medication. Can you call your doctor before your appointment and let them know what's going on?Please take care and hang in there, they may just need to lower your dose.
Mik
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