Posted by freedom2001 on November 3, 2002, at 22:34:12
In reply to Re: I FEEL SO SUICIDAL! OCD IS HELL! » freedom2001, posted by Fenny3 on November 3, 2002, at 18:48:26
> > So do you have obessions/compulsions sometimes or most of the times now? I'm so glad to hear that your husband and family are supportive and understanding. That's very important to people like us.
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> If I was to estimate a frequency/intensity, I'd guess that now I have one or two mild/moderate episodes a day. My symptoms are also mostly thought based, as opposed to action based. What are your symptoms like? Are you affected every day?Yes I'm affected every day and mostly each day I woke up it's a challenge. It's mainly thought based plus a series of compulsive action. All these can be terrifying and very frustrating at times. How I wish God will heal me right away.
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> > So are you a christian or a free thinker?
> I'm not a Christian in the literal sense, but I'm a good person. I like to think I'm a free thinker, but that's pretty subjective. I try, though.
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> > If he gives you a cert, pls ask him to send me one as well. :)
> > I remembered that when I was young, I would keep seeing 3 demons in my dream dragging me through a wall. And I would wake up and run to the living room to bang the door. It could be some sort of demonic posession, I'm not sure. But the possibility is there.
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> That sounds terrifying! Did you get any input from your parents as to cause? Could this have been some anxiety/OCD?My parents are clueless as well. I personally believe that it is some sort of supernatural evil harassing me when I was young, not just some simple anxiety as I can clearly see the demons and what they're trying to do.
In fact, I can recall that they even chase me around on top of several drums.
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> > It is so enviable and nice to hear that you have no symptoms at all. So does it mean you have no more obsessions/compulsions or just a little and when they come, you can simply ignore them?
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> When I'm pregnant I am symptomless. My SO has said he doesn't remember me ever being so happy, or laughing so much.Happiness is a luxury that I wish to have every day as well.
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> > Coming to genetic, do you worry about your baby having the defect gene? (God forbid!). Have you discussed this with your doc and secret officer (SO)?
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> SO and I have discussed it briefly with our dr. SO has very mild panic stuff (so mild I'm not even going to call it a disorder), so we've talked at length about our daughterDid the doc say what is the percentage of the baby having OCD? 15%??
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> > I'm struggling to earn enough money to get married to my significant other (SO)....You sound like a very fun person to chat with. Your husband is fortunate to have a chatty wife like you. :)
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> Thanks! I hope it happens for you soon. It's very nice to have someone to share your life with, and that accepts you as you are!Indeed, our SO are the best gift we have.
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> Fenny
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