Posted by Blah on October 29, 2002, at 2:20:02
In reply to Re: Blah update » Blah, posted by Pfinstegg on October 24, 2002, at 12:29:14
I don't see my pdoc for a week, different than my therapist. I like my therapist much more. I've had terrible appetite. Some days I can't eat at all, except some chocolate and a bag of chips in the morning. I don't know if it's depression, the Nardil, or both. The Nardil may be doing something, I thought it was making me more agressive with people, but I was wrong. Today my depression was terrible, and I had terrible mood reactivity, and still a lot of lethargy. I feel no one is really open to me, and I may be right. Everyone seems so closed minded to my likes and ideas which are very different and nonmain stream. I also feel very unapreaciated. Lately some friends have judged me for my symtemes ("all you need is exercise, or a change in diet"). Some have judged me for being unemployed and SSI and for taking meds. These judgements are very painful. I tire of defending myself. I don't know what and to who I should say to make them understand how much it hurts without scaring them away. How do you tell your friends you've had fantacys of suicide and nonexistant, and what are they expected to do about it? I thought I felt something before from the Nardil, but maybe not. I don't know what to do about the lack of appetite, and I need for the lethargy to at least go away soon, so I can funtion enough to get something done.
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