Posted by Disillusioned on September 18, 2002, at 11:58:02
In reply to Re: THANKS for the warning!, posted by Eddie Sylvano on September 18, 2002, at 9:58:15
Well said. I cannot agree with you more. And what I have decided is my decision and should not be interpreted as a recommendation for others. But you name it, I've tried. From MAO inhhibitors to SSRI's. The list is too long to remember all the names. They do not work for me. My current medications have me just as immobilized as I will be when I'm 'high' 12-16 hours a day.
But you wrote "[science] is largely responsible for the many advances that society has made since its growing utilization began hundreds of years ago." Yeah? Name one! The twentieth century has been the bloodiest century in history. We eat processed food. We drive automobiles that pollute the air. We languish in front of the Moron Tube, TV, and accept any of the propoganda fed to us. I don't believe that we've advanced at all. Don't confuse change with advancement. Change is inevitable, but growth is optional, and our society is not about growth, it's about money! More for the rich and less scrupulous, and less for those who just want a decent life. It's a world economy! Business offers 'competitive' wages. Who are you competing with? Third world workers who will work for less? As you grow older, workers who are younger and less expensive? Or, in this information age that offers the wonderful Internet, the countless volunteers who offer technical help for free? Microsoft, one of the largest multi-million dollar companies, hands out MVP awards to volunteers who help others with technical info. But those same MVPs are asking for contributions to keep their websites up because Microsoft isn't willing to compensate them with cash.
I'm not depressed, I'm disillusioned. You have the right to assemble, but only with a permit, and it better not be in Waco, TX. You have the right to bear arms, but not arms that are equal to the arsenal of the National Guard and army. And if you do have such arms, you're a terrorist! You have the right to remain silent, but only after you're arrested. Until then, you're guilty of 'not cooperating'. You have the right to freedom of religion, as long as it's not an upstart religion which is commonly labled a cult with all the bad connotations that go with it. You have the right to privacy, but you gotta piss in a bottle to get a job! Gimme a break.
Sixty years ago, running numbers was an illegal activity run by the mafia. Now it's embraced by the federal government. Cigarettes were fashionable and fairly taxed. Not any more! Now the feds take 60% of a price of cigarettes in their "effort to cleanse society" of this addictive substance, and they keep raising the taxes because they need funding! None of that money goes into quit smoking programs. The goverment keeps raising the taxes because as Alan Greenspan testified, "people who are addicted will pay anything."
Thirty years ago, when I entered the workforce, I could find no work better than working in a car wash. I was making close to $2 an hour. My wife and I bought a brand new car and paid $2700 for it. Now, an equivalent car costs $27,000, ten times as much, but car washworkers aren't making ten times as much.
I finally woke up and went to college. Not long after graduating, I was making $50,000 a year. Then, suddenly, out of the blue, I suffered a traumatic brain injury. My Social Security 'award' is less than 1/4 of my previous income, and my meds are not paid for by Medicare. My cost of living adjustimet went up 3.5 % this year, but my Medicare part B insurance went up 10%. The Zoloft costs me over $100 per month, and the insurance won't pay for it! I'm locked in my house not only by my disease, but also by lack of finances.
I'm remitting this label. I'm not 'depressed'. I'm disillusioned! This 'greatest nation in the world' isn't very great, and surely isn't willing to share it's great wealth. It isn't helping me, an American, but it's over in Pakistan, and soon Iraq, to among other things, help the culturally afflicted women. Just like we helped the Serbs get rid of Milosevic, by bombing their factories and their standard of living.
I get my meds and 'therapy' from county mental health. They just got themselves a new $6 million building, but they have no money or resources to provide competent one on one care. I've been in two county mental health hospitals in two different states. These are nothing but jails! They are surrounded by high fences and barbed wire. Lunch consists of one piece of balogna between two slices of white bread. And the treatment! Wow! There is no groups, no RET or Cognitive therapy. You get to see your doc for 15 mins once per week. The rest of the time is babysitting by the TV.
Call me a rebel. Call me disillusioned. Call me alienated. Call me a criminal. Call me a pot head. Call me a terrorist! Call me a realist!! But don't call me depressed. I won't be victimized by that word again.
p.s. Is a terrorist someone that is spreading terror? Is G.W. spreading terror? Wouldthe US allow the Pakistanis to occupy our country to look for a terrorist named Osama Bin G.W.? You do the math! I'd rather get stoned.
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