Posted by Mr.Scott on August 19, 2002, at 20:48:40
In reply to Re: Probable Bipolar drug addict seeks advice » Mr.Scott, posted by judy1 on August 19, 2002, at 10:48:37
Thanks for responding earlier to this thread.I was clean for 5 years, but not in a 12 step group. Then I broke with with my support system (girlfriend) and started going out with my old friends who enjoy life in the fast lane. Whats odd is that they don't experience anything like the degree of illness I do when I use. I don't even like the feeling I get, I just do it because thats what my friends do!
I think I need new friends (I have a few who don't mess with that stuff but not many!) So lonely though!. I tend to be slightly hypomanic with a touch of mixed here and there with lots of anxiety when sober for a few weeks. And then I get a call to hang out and I go and I feel all uncomfortable socially and without anything in common, and boom! I do a little coke and then have a few beers, and somehow that morphs into a 24 hour binge with 7-10 days of hell afterwards.
Scott
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