Posted by deli on May 27, 2002, at 13:33:56
Hello, everyone I am new to this group. I have had a history of major depressive episodes every three to four years with minor ones in between. About five years ago I went thru a really bad one ending me in the hospital. I was stabilized with Remeron and Prozac and for the next five years I was back to my normal self. Even went through school and finished by BFA with high honors. Two weeks ago everything started again and I am so scared I wont be able to take it anymore. I have two pre-teen daughters who need me but it is so hard to be there for them. My husband is very supportive and is helping me thru this. I really think I am going crazy and wont be able to get out of this. I cry all day and only look forward to nightime to sleep. At this time I was only taking Prozac weekly because I was doing so well. I wasn't taking it every week. I hope that is why I am back to this horrible monster. My doctor put me back on Remeron over the phone because I had to fly to San Diego and he couldn't see me. (San Diego was supposed to be vacation and I cried all the time). I am having recurrent obsessive thoughts that make no sense but pull me into this anguish and I cant control. I have an appointment with my doctor tommorrow but I don't think anything is going to help. Has any of you fell this way or am I really going crazy.
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thread:107739
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