Posted by Janelle on April 2, 2002, at 23:22:50
In reply to My Reply on admin board » Janelle, posted by IsoM on April 2, 2002, at 22:06:46
IsoM:
I'll get over to admin soon (my internet provider was down yesterday so I have a lot to catch up on here first!), but I want to respond to some of what you described about your intrusive thoughts:
First, I'd like to say that I'm usually so WELL organized that friends and family frequently comment on it, compliment me, and wonder how I am able to do it "effortlessly" so being in this chaotic, disorganized frame of mind is very upsetting to me.
Okay, now I'll do the insert method to respond to some things you wrote:
>My thoughts are intrusive only in the sense that they're bothersome because I'm trying to think or do other things instead. My mind feels like a container of popcorn being popped. Thoughts, like kernels of corn, are bouncing around randomly inside my head. Concentrating can be very exhausting for me. Only when I'm hyperfocusing does it become effortless & then I become oblivious to other things happening around me.
You have a WONDERFUL way with words - mind feeling like a container of popcorn being popped, with thughts like kernels of corn, etc. PERFECT description. Everything you've said here describes my current cognitive state, which is NOT the *norm* for me.
> There's some posts here that I can't read, interesting or not, because it's all in one long paragraph - no breaks. I blank out.
Me too! I can't read the long, non-paragraphed posts either! What I was describing as feeling overwhelmed, my head starting to swim, anxiety building is basically a blanking out situation. I see a long post with no paragraph breaks and I blank right out and cannot focus on it, no how, no way.
>Adrafinil helps a lot with these problems, but nothing will ever help 100%.
I've seen that name - Adrafinil - on this board - what kind of med is it? A stimulant?
poster:Janelle
thread:101512
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