Posted by pedr on March 22, 2002, at 8:58:50
In reply to types of depression feelings, posted by JohnX2 on March 21, 2002, at 6:41:10
Hi John,
very interesting question. My depression manifests itself in several different ways:
- the sensation of being full causes me to feel intense self loathing. I've tried for many an hour to work this one out but am stumped. I very rarely eat a large meal as a result. When I do eat just too much [usually by accident] I then loath myself because I know it causes me to loath myself. Good grief.- what I call "biological depression". This is the undescribably vile feeling I get in my stomach, chest and heart with no associated thinking. There is nothing I can think/do/say/recall that shifts this bastard when it sets up camp. It's the most upsetting and demoralising of all my forms of depression and quickly makes me not want to be around. Thankfully of late it is less frequent.
- thinking based depression. This is where I can clearly see the link between a causal thought e.g. "I am worthless because I can't drink" or "I can't bear this work, it's so depressing" and the subsequent emotion. This is the type of depressed feeling that I stand a chance of combating with the REBT I do. I'm slowly making inroads into this... v e r y s l o w l y....
- social anxiety. This is where I have obsessive thoughts that people are thinking I'm a complete c*nt and so on. I've tried a million things to challenge this but it's resolute. It mainly makes me dread going on the tube and being on my own in public.
So there you go, a quick cross-section of my rather odd bonce.
Adios,
pete.
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