Posted by sleepingbeauty on March 18, 2002, at 18:31:24
In reply to Hatred for happiness. OCD?, posted by CygnusX1 on March 18, 2002, at 17:06:06
Wow, I can relate to this somewhat. Depending on my *mood* (they tend to be sooooooo up & down all the time), sometimes if someone catches me in one of my *mean* moods, I just want to tell them to shut the hell up that I'm sick of hearing about his/her problems.I suppose that comes from trying to keep things to myself. I feel no need to try and burden others with my problems when their problems seem so MUCH greater, etc. Hmmmm, aren't those kind of people called *blood suckers aka leeches*.
I feel pretty melancholy the greater part of the day as well. Interesting that we both feel that need to not have things interfere with our "zone". I KNOW I have OCD, I can't stand change, I adore a routine and IF things aren't that way, I pretty much become "Sybil", irritable, agitated, angry, etc....
Apparently it's time for me to get some rest, I am getting cranky just typing this now, geesh!
~just thought I'd let you know you're not alone~sleepingbeauty who TRIES to be nice, really!!!
> Time to break out those dusty Freud books. This has been with me for a long time. I always wondered if it could be traced to OCD or some undercurrent of suppressed emotion.
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> Whenever I see someone extremely happy due to an event like engagement, promotion, or having a baby I just want to verbally ( not physically ) assault them.
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> A woman at my work was asked to be married over the weekend and she said yes. Now that's good as far as it goes, but through the entire day everytime I walked past her that's all I heard her talking about. I just wanted to say something vile. Like "Don't fool yourself, he's in it for the money" ( She comes from wealth )
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> Envy is not a fitting term. For many situations it wouldn't even make sense.
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> Egotistical perhaps. Maybe I find fault in people thinking that happiness can even be thought of without my presence or input.
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> I glide through the day very melancholy. Perhaps the slighest drift towards positive or negative disrupts my "space" or "zone".
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> Maybe I should rethink getting off of Luvox. =)
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