Posted by CygnusX1 on March 18, 2002, at 17:06:06
Time to break out those dusty Freud books. This has been with me for a long time. I always wondered if it could be traced to OCD or some undercurrent of suppressed emotion.
Whenever I see someone extremely happy due to an event like engagement, promotion, or having a baby I just want to verbally ( not physically ) assault them.
A woman at my work was asked to be married over the weekend and she said yes. Now that's good as far as it goes, but through the entire day everytime I walked past her that's all I heard her talking about. I just wanted to say something vile. Like "Don't fool yourself, he's in it for the money" ( She comes from wealth )
Envy is not a fitting term. For many situations it wouldn't even make sense.
Egotistical perhaps. Maybe I find fault in people thinking that happiness can even be thought of without my presence or input.
I glide through the day very melancholy. Perhaps the slighest drift towards positive or negative disrupts my "space" or "zone".
Maybe I should rethink getting off of Luvox. =)
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