Posted by BarbaraCat on February 1, 2002, at 2:48:33
In reply to Re: SSRI's, BPD, OCD » BarbaraCat, posted by Dinah on February 1, 2002, at 0:44:52
Dinah, that's great that you've found a way to celebrate who you are, quirkiness and all. You sound like someone involved in the arts. I remember when I was on 300 mg of zolof I just couldn't feel a thing - and I was still miserable! But it was like watching someone else being miserable and not caring.
Fibromyalgia is kind of like chronic fatigue syndrome. No one really knows exacly what it is since there's no blood marker for it yet (sorta like depression). It goes in cycles causing a deep aching in all the muscles, fatigue like you can't believe, insomnia, cognitive impairment. I'll be flat on my back in bed for 2-3 weeks at a time and then I'll get better for 1-2 months or so. Never can tell when it will pull the rug out. Some theories say it's an impairment in the enzyme that breaks down substance P, but most agree that it's a metabolic dysfunction. It's becoming extremely common, mainly in women, and I suspect it has alot to do with a cellular toxic overload caused by pollution, stress, genetics, virus - who knows? It's my little buddy, however, in that it keeps me real conscious of my limits. I can't get away with anything anymore and am in danger of becoming terminally pure!
> OCD, cyclothymia. I'm on Depakote and Klonopin and much prefer them to the SSRI's. I still have OCD thoughts and I still have mood cycling, but I'm willing to put up with it to not have my thinking dulled with SSRI's. My self image is way too tied in to being smart and bright. SSRI's robbed me of that feeling.
> Besides I like being the quirky odd person that I am. I wouldn't want to be medicated out of that. Of course, my OCD and mood cycling are relatively mild compared to some. If they caused me enough discomfort, I might well make a different choice.
> Your fibromyalgia sounds like a terrible thing to have to deal with. Chronic pain must really wear you out. Is it an immune related illness like lupus? I'm afraid that although I've heard the term, I just don't know all that much about it.
> Dinah
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