Posted by IsoM on January 26, 2002, at 13:35:43
In reply to Re: Last post of it's Kind.. » IsoM, posted by Mr. Scott on January 26, 2002, at 10:13:33
Nah, Scott, you're not a bother or an annoyance at all. I think it's the combo of "mother/pseudo-psych" in me but if I have suggestions & someone's willing to listen, I don't mind sharing them
> > "...I am upset about the break-up. I deluded myself into thinking it was forever, but in truth it hadn't worked for a long time. I still think about her from time to time, but it's an idealized her I think about, not who she is today. I don't trust people easily to begin with, and my sex drive is low due to the meds, and on top of that it's hard to enter into a relationship with someone who is quote unquote normal when I'm on 3-4 pills a day and loaded with insecurities about them."
I think it's best to think about yourself & learn to be happy with who you are. When you reach the point of at least accepting yourself - thorns & flowers, then you'll be ready for a real relationship. Sorry to sound so sour perhaps, but a person who's doesn't love themself (& I don't mean a narcissistic-type love) isn't capable of truly loving another. Even though I take meds & my moods can occasionally change, I consider myself normal & balanced. I know that can sound ridiculous but I consider my judegment sound & to have a good grasp of common sense. Taking, or not taking, meds is not what I judge "normalness" to be.
> >"...The bipolar issue is less clear... I have never been clearly manic that is for sure. I can be intense, snappy, and impulsive a bit. My mind races, but mostly it’s anxious content, although I have had intense good r only racing. My sleep has always been the same. Difficulty going to sleep and waking up. This has been consistent my whole life."This sounds *much* more like ADD or ADHD. Checking yourself on-line will not confirm whether you do have it, but will give you an idea of whether that may be a reason for your behaviour. ADHD was so strongly indicative of me that I went to a psychologist for testing & he confirmed it. Why not check it out by trying a few of the adult designed tests?
Online Interactive Tests for ADHD: http://add.about.com/cs/onlinetests/
> > "...I think your right that the drinking screws up the mind and the meds confusing me even further."
Perhaps giving your system a chance to clear out all the meds & their effects, plus that of the alcohol may be more helpful than anything else. Hang in there & let us know from time to time how you're doing.And if you feel a worse relapse coming on, post back immediately for moral support.
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