Posted by Mr.Scott on January 26, 2002, at 13:54:42
In reply to Follow-up » Mr. Scott, posted by IsoM on January 26, 2002, at 13:35:43
> Nah, Scott, you're not a bother or an annoyance at all. I think it's the combo of "mother/pseudo-psych" in me but if I have suggestions & someone's willing to listen, I don't mind sharing them
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> > > "...I am upset about the break-up. I deluded myself into thinking it was forever, but in truth it hadn't worked for a long time. I still think about her from time to time, but it's an idealized her I think about, not who she is today. I don't trust people easily to begin with, and my sex drive is low due to the meds, and on top of that it's hard to enter into a relationship with someone who is quote unquote normal when I'm on 3-4 pills a day and loaded with insecurities about them."
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> I think it's best to think about yourself & learn to be happy with who you are. When you reach the point of at least accepting yourself - thorns & flowers, then you'll be ready for a real relationship. Sorry to sound so sour perhaps, but a person who's doesn't love themself (& I don't mean a narcissistic-type love) isn't capable of truly loving another. Even though I take meds & my moods can occasionally change, I consider myself normal & balanced. I know that can sound ridiculous but I consider my judegment sound & to have a good grasp of common sense. Taking, or not taking, meds is not what I judge "normalness" to be.
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> > >"...The bipolar issue is less clear... I have never been clearly manic that is for sure. I can be intense, snappy, and impulsive a bit. My mind races, but mostly it’s anxious content, although I have had intense good r only racing. My sleep has always been the same. Difficulty going to sleep and waking up. This has been consistent my whole life."
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> This sounds *much* more like ADD or ADHD. Checking yourself on-line will not confirm whether you do have it, but will give you an idea of whether that may be a reason for your behaviour. ADHD was so strongly indicative of me that I went to a psychologist for testing & he confirmed it. Why not check it out by trying a few of the adult designed tests?
> Online Interactive Tests for ADHD: http://add.about.com/cs/onlinetests/
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> > > "...I think your right that the drinking screws up the mind and the meds confusing me even further."
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> Perhaps giving your system a chance to clear out all the meds & their effects, plus that of the alcohol may be more helpful than anything else. Hang in there & let us know from time to time how you're doing.And if you feel a worse relapse coming on, post back immediately for moral support.Your post has made it into my scrap book of posts of wise advice I've received here on this site. Thank you for putting me at ease today and reminding me that occasionally one can find true empathy in this world. I wouldn't even know where to look or who to seek out to get the kind of feedback I get here. And no one is getting paid for it either. Thanks ISOM! I hope one day I can be of help to you.
Scott
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