Posted by sar on October 29, 2001, at 19:41:33
In reply to Re: Question for Bipolar 2's » sar, posted by Krazy Kat on October 29, 2001, at 18:00:40
> Hi, Sar.
>
> I have this problem. Actually, I have a love/hate relationship with the night in general. As a teenager, I snuck out constantly and just roamed the streets at night.me too. it's an important part of my past...and i stil walk at night sometimes, it just doesn't carry they allure of "sneaking out"... :)
> If I hadn't been married so young, 21, I imagine I would have continued that.
the last time i "snuck out," so to speak, about 2 weeks ago, i swigged vodka way into the A.M. and came home banging on the door. when my mother opened it, she found me standing there hair askew carrying a large hammer and a small crowbar. i have *no idea* how i obtained those items.i would imagine that marriage is somewhat stabilising! :)
> So, I still get restless at night, as certainly seems to be the case with those of us with this BP II diagnosis, or whatever the hell is wrong with us. And I, too, use and have used alcohol to get to sleep. Sleeping pills only work one night in a row for me.
well, i once read that introverts get their energy at night and extroverts, during the day. i'm definitely introverted and from grade 9 or so haven't been able to make myself start homework 'til 'round midnight on average.> I don't know the answer. Seems like we should be happy to be up at night, writing poetry or something. Instead it becomes suffocating, and the threat of death really does set in.
it does for me because it is dark and quiet...in addition, i lost all of my favorite books and cd's in a housefire, and i've got no TV in my room. i did used to go to bed sober, but all i could do was lay there thinking i wanted to die. during the day that's bad enough...but in the dark, completely alone? it's just too frightening.
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