Posted by DP on August 13, 2001, at 11:17:35
In reply to Re: Effexor - NEED INPUT PLEASE » DP, posted by Kaysey on August 13, 2001, at 5:32:04
Thanks again for all the replies. I really appreciate them. It's nice to know there are people out there that understand and sympathetic about what I'm going through. I never even experienced a panic attack, let alone heard of one.
In case anyone is interested in knowing:
I just came back from my first counseling session (for my eating disorder) with a psychiatrist that I was referred to from my regular doctor. Boy, she REALLY dug deep into the root of things. I'm not one to blame my parents or my upbringing for my current actions, as I believe we are all responsible for our own action as adults. But I can't help but to think if things would have been different had I grown up with different parents. I come from a strict asian family - parents weren't even born here. They're the type of parents that would question my bringing home an A- on a report card saying, "well why couldn't you get an A". More recently, I lost my mother to cancer. I felt as though I had a "tighter" relationship with my dad since he's the only parent I now have, so I came out to him and told him I was gay - he basically disowned me. Anyway, I'm sorry for babbling. The point I'm making is that there's a lot more to my eating disorder than I originally thought. You're so right, Kaysey, about living in a society where "thin is gorgeous". Everyone keeps telling me I look ok (btw, I'm 27 years old, 6'0", 160lbs considered to be underweight by many people). Still I do not like what I see in the mirror. I'll never be happy unless I get rid of my obsession with weight. I'm hoping with the proper medication and therapy, I can get through this.
Again I apologize for the long message. Thanks so much for listening, everyone.
Jimmy
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