Posted by MM on July 30, 2001, at 23:36:31
In reply to mixed episode?, posted by sar on July 30, 2001, at 22:41:19
hmm, well I'm newly dxd BPII and IF I am, I get mixed episodes. What I feel is anxiety, agitation (just like I wanna beat the hell out of anything), VERY negative, depression, pissed off etc. I guess I could describe it like being on acid (things seem weird, kinda freaky), speed (wanna go go go) and yet very depressed. Someone on another board desribed it as feeling like a jet sitting on a runway with the superpower engines on FULL blast waiting to take off, YET the brakes are on, and you can't go anywhere. It's like a gnawing, intense feeling of needing to run around the house a billion times, SCREAMING, raging, crying, and beating the hell out of anything that crosses your path. I'm also having panic attacks at this time (I feel like I'm going to die, I worry I'm completely insane, my chest is so tight I can't breathe etc.). It's sort of like every cell in your body is full of intense electric activity, but you have the flu so they're all kind of sick (have you ever smoked a cigarette REAL fast and gotten kind of nauseous, and light headed? It kind of feels like each cell is smoking too fast). hmm I don't think that makes sense. A mixed episode isn't pleasant.
Currently I'm on NO meds (but seeing a pdoc, getting on neurontin as soon as I see him), but I've tried SSRI's and SNRI's (which I don't think were too good).
anyway, hope this helps.
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