Posted by sweetmarie on April 8, 2001, at 13:00:47
In reply to Re: HAS ANYONE ..., posted by Shirley2 on April 8, 2001, at 12:04:54
Shirley,
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> Your input is greatly welcomed as you are so supportive and very non judgmental.I`m glad you think that.
> So no, I don't think you're sticking your nose in it at all.
Good, I was a bit worried ... >
> I think you're so right that I need a second opinion and not a longer appointment.
It`s definitely worth a shot, and could be the answer. >
> Fortunately, right now, I seem to be doing alot better so my theory of increasing my prozac and taking the adderall 1 hour apart from the prozac in the morning seems to be working. My depression this morning was related to family issues so we'll have to see whether I am right or not. But yesterday, I did this and I felt great but my mood sagged later in the day which I know wasn't due to the Adderall or it wearing off. When I took extra Prozac, a microdose, I felt alot better but when that wore off, the chain reaction of tearfullness and agiation continued until late morning. But once I had done what I needed to do to get something done in the morning, I could feel myself settling down until I had a fight with a family member. That's why the picture is a little clouded.
It`s hard I know, to sift out the `inner` stuff, from the circumstantial stuff. For example, Since the referral to the specialist, I have been very bad indeed - hardly having any reasonable days at all (the last was about 2 and a half weeks ago). Prior to that, I was having far more `O.K.` days. I really don`t know whether this is the case, but I reckon that all this waiting around has caused a lot of anxiety. The biggest anxiety is that it won`t help me at all, and then what? I`ve been disappointed so many times before, that I just don`t hold out much hope at all. On the other hand, I have EVERY hope, if you see what I mean. Kind of two conflicting things going on in my head. I had almost made up my mind NOT to go ahead with this whole escapade: just didn`t think I could cope with the consequences, if it wasn`t successful. This is a very long-winded way of saying that I don`t know either how much outside factors cause (or worsen) the depression. I prefer to think that they do, because the concept that my brain has created this monster is very hard for me to get my head around. >
> Thank you so much for telling me the types of questions that specialist asked you.
Those are the kinds of questions necessary for a full assessment, which it sounds like you need.
That's exactly what I am looking for. I try to keep a diary but having LD/ADD, it's hard to do.
I used to keep a diary, but it was just silly: almost every entry said stuff like `feel like shit today`, or `I can`t cope with this much longer`, which at the end of the day aren`t really all that helpful. >
> I live in the United States. If my problems aren't resolved, I will ask my psychiatrist to refer me to the same person he referred someone else who had similar problems. This person is based at a prestigious place, where they are on the cutting edge of research so she sounds good.
Sounds like a good place. The place I`m going to is also well established as a `place of excellence`, and the professor bloke is well respected in his field. >
> You're absolutely not ranting about psychiatrists as I agree with you that we shouldn't have to be doing their work. But what is and what should be are two different things, right?
You`re not wrong, unfortunately. >
> I know you've mentioned this before but when do you go into the hospital under that guy's care?
In approx 4 weeks time. Too far away by half.
I hope he can come up with the right combination for you as it sounds like you're way way way overdue for some good luck.
I hate to sound self-pitying, but I agree. This thing has gone on quite long enough, and I really don`t feel like I deserve it. Mind you, it doesn`t have anything to do with `deserve`, really - does it? >
> Anna, you have been so helpful so please don't hesitate to make any comments or suggestions that you think might be useful. It sounds like you have been through the wars and I can definately learn from your experience. I'm sure you're pretty tired of teaching people:)) but I think you know what I mean.
No, I`m not tired at all. Well, only sometimes, and that`s mainly when I`m in hospital (I`ve been there 3 times before in the past 3 years). I find myself becoming the person that everyone comes to with their problems. I think that this is because I`m so good at hiding my depression that people don`t think there`s anything wrong. But this doesn`t apply to you I hasten to add. >
> Back to preparing dinner for my "wonderful" family.
A tad sarcastic ?? >
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> PS - Did I read correctly that if you're in the UK and on multiple drugs, you have to be in the hospital? Since our system is different and that doesn't happen unless you're suicidal, I am curious as to the reasoning. That's what I like about the internet, learning about how things are done in other countries. It helps me bridge my knowledge gap due to my LDI read that somewhere else on this message board (that people in the UK have to go into hospital for multiple drug treatment). All I can say is that this isn`t the case in my area, or at least it hasn`t been the case with me. I can`t speak for other areas though.
What is LD?
all good things,
Anna.
p.s. how old are you?
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