Posted by sweetmarie on April 9, 2001, at 4:25:49
In reply to Re: HAS ANYONE ..., posted by Shirley2 on April 8, 2001, at 20:42:04
Shirley,
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Anyway, they only have themselves to blame as they were my best teachers:))What do you mean by that? >
> I certainly don't blame you for being anxious about whether this new treatment will be successful or not. I know I would be if I were in your position.
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> But the only way you're going to know if it works or not is to try it. If you don't try it, it's not going to have any chance of working right?:))I know that you`re right ... not taking the opportunity would be like `looking a gift horse in the mouth`, or whatever the saying is. I`d give you the same advice, too. It`s funny (hilarious), that we seem to be able to give excellent advice to other people - for me, about almost everything, although relationships are my particular `area of expertise`, whilst not giving it to ourselves, let alone following it. I`ve had some spectacular disasters in the relationship area, and yet the advice I give can`t really be faulted.
I hated it when people gave me that type of advice and here I'm doing it to you:)) Forgive me for being a hypocrite:))
Forgiven. As I said, I know exactly where you`re coming from on this one. >
> To answer your question, LD stands for learning disability and I am 45. For those people who are not familiar with LD, it means we have average to above average intelligence but due to faulty wiring in our brains, depending on which areas give us trouble, we have problems learning the traditional way. For example, I have trouble reading alot of written material (reading through posts on this board isn't a problem) and as a result, I prefer audio books.
Right. That must have been a major milestone around your neck. >
> Back to your situation - I don't mean to sound like a pop psychologist but I find it interesting that you seem to be the strong one in the hospital.
It`s not so hard to explain. I`m usually (9 times out of 10), the most `educated`, if you see what I mean. I don`t know how to put this, without sounding like a complete snob, but I think that others tend to think that because I speak `well` (or, `posh` as it`s normally referred to), and have a university background (well, a polytechnic background - same difference), that I must know the answers. This of course is complete rubbish, but ... I think it has more than a little to do with it.
That's good in a way because it takes your mind off your own problems.
It does, to an extent, but sometimes I`m longing to say `look at me, I`m really ill too!`
But I hope you make sure that your needs get taken care of also.
This is another stumbling block. Because I am so articulate about my illness, and I`m so practised in covering it up (I could get an Oscar for my award-winning performances of `being happy`), I find it hard to actually express my total despair. This probably sounds a bit arse about face, but it really is something I can`t seem to help doing. For example, when I go to my psychiatrist for my monthly appointment, I could have spent the entire 4 weeks lying on (or in) my bed, contemplating suicide, but when I`m faced with her, I just say it`s been `bad`, and act all stoic. It really works against me, I know, but I guess I`m afraid that she (and others) will think that I`m an unintelligent moron. I know that I have to do something about this though, and I did manage to make a bit of headway last time I saw her, when I spent the first 10 minutes crying. I`d never done that before, and I think that she was a little surprised.
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> To end on a positive note, I survived my family dinner in one piece and I'm feeling better. Hope my luck continues and it crosses over the Atlantic Ocean in time to affect you during your hospital stay in four weeks. Then you have to send it back across the ocean and we'll keep pushing it back and forth. I don't have a pigeon so I'm not sure what we could use:)) If other people on this board want in on the action, they'll get some also.That`s a splendid idea!
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You take care too,Anna.
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