Posted by Andre Allard on November 8, 2000, at 23:49:57
In reply to ALMOST TOOK A TRIP TO THE BIG CITY IN THE SKY, posted by Andre Allard on November 6, 2000, at 22:13:17
I feel that I am unlucky that I am alive if anyone was wondering.
Although my family knows about my hospital stays and my depression in general, they do not know any details.
Except for doctors and nurses, nobody knows about my 3 suicide attempts in the last 2 months.
I am currently on effexor 150mg/day and trazadone 100mg/day. It is working I guess you could say.
If it were not for the hair loss and the decreased appetite I experience while on effexor I would probably double my dosage.
The pdoc I spoke to when I was in the hospital this weekend did not want me to make an appointment with him because (I have seen him for the last 2 years when I have been here at school) he believes that he cannot treat me due to the fact that I change meds and the dosages around without his conscent - I do not know why I need it anyways. He told me to get a referal from my school doctor so I suppose that is what I will do. My school doctor gives me effexor anyways so I do not see how a pdoc can help.
I am still waiting for zyprasidone to come out.
In the mean time, I am living. If something happens to me, well, I do not really care.
poster:Andre Allard
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