Posted by ryan_s on September 20, 2000, at 11:59:32
yes, i feel like i have the bronze metal in my compitition with depression, and feel that i can capture the gold throughout this next year. the goal is happiness. i have been on a variety of antidepressants, AP's, and neurontin. the only drug combo that has worked is effexor and adderall. Effexor cleared my mind and adderall helped me hold conversations with people for more than ten minutes. the problem is that when i talk about myself i never seem to feel passionate for what i am saying at the present time. for example, i might say, "i love the subject of english" (what i am studying), but then i think of ten other reasons why i hate it. the entire day is like a battle. granted personal indecisiveness is natural to a point, but mine is to a tee.
here is where i need your help. this is sad to say, but the only time that i feel love, compassion, and the willingness to talk to family and friends is when i drink alcohol in combination with the effexor and the adderall. i would like to try a med, like neurontin that acts on GABA but without the side effect of depression (have tried before). i think that three meds is going to be my limit. anyways thanks for the info and best of luck to you all.
going for the gold,
ryan_s
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