Posted by Cindy W on August 1, 2000, at 22:23:17
In reply to Re: feeling ashamed of depression, posted by Janice on August 1, 2000, at 21:28:42
> I can relate. I try to talk about it as little as possible, and when I do I am usually thinking, ' who the hell is this nut I'm talking about?' I hate that feeling of being out-there, vunerable loose in the system.
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> I only talk about it to my psychiatrist and here at PB, but there certainly have been times in my life where I've had to talk about it in places where I didn't want to, to people I didn't want to share it with.
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> the worst time to have to do this is when you are actually suffering from the illness, and feeling extremely vunerable. I'm sorry you had to experience this today. It always took me a few days to recover from this kind of stuff.
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> I've made a policy for myself to talk about it as little as possible. I don't tell anyone except when I absolutely must - like your situation today. Sorry again.
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> Janice
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> ps you have no reason to feel depressed, I have no reason to feel good (but I do). It's not your fault, it's not my fault.
ksvt, I can relate, too. I feel especially ashamed today, because I just can't take any action to change the things I need to change in my life. It's hard enough to get out of bed in the morning, go to work, and make it through the day. After work, I do a few errands, feed my pets, and lie in bed trying to sleep (with varying success). I feel so ashamed that I'm not all better yet, after taking Effexor-XR and working with a pdoc for almost a year. Today was the first time in a long time I thought about suicide, too, although I won't do it. Hang in there and I'll try to do the same!
poster:Cindy W
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