Posted by Phil on July 30, 2000, at 8:07:29
In reply to Re: Dreary architecture of your soul.., posted by JohnB on July 30, 2000, at 2:58:43
It's good to be back. For a while, I couldn't sit still long enough to even do any decent lurking.
My birthday a few weeks back was the lowest point I've probably ever reached; love those anniversaries!
I think I've just been procrastinating on doing the actions I must do to get well. I do know what helps my depression, along w/ meds, and have been avoiding ANYTHING that could help me.
I, like so many others, have a shame based system I operate from and it just keeps telling me that I don't deserve better. I do deserve better, as does everyone that suffers, but I really get frustrated and angry that I 'seem' to have to try so hard just to, say, have fun or relax.
It's a vicious cycle that I know all too well.
Any of this sound familiar? : 0
Thanks for responing to my post and hello to all the rest here at Babble central.
Hey, I think I may get talkative again.Phil
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