Posted by Janice on July 8, 2000, at 0:14:04
In reply to Re: hi Janice…someone please teach us how to sleep, posted by Chris A. on July 7, 2000, at 7:45:25
hi Chris,
Yes, sleep is the trick. It was you who shared with me your tricks for good sleep hygiene, and it is a wonderful theory. Oh God, without sleep everything is worse, mania, depression, irritability, paranoia (I'm prone to that one too). I know that no sleeping, very sick, very worried about tomorrow, frantic, making things even worse feeling… Eeeeekkkks 2 hours has just gone by, EEEEEEeeeeekkkkkkkksssssss 4 hours, 6 hours.
'four hospitalizations and the twenty ECT treatments in the past six months. I don't want him to mention the suicide attempt and am pretty sure he won't.'
Not good small talk. I didn't realize you've had so many hospitalizations Chris. I've only been hospitalized twice (once for anorexia and once for mania) and both times I had a sense of relief that at least for a little while I didn't have to look after myself. Once they discover the 'suicide gene or genes', I won't have it. Sounds like you may. I want to be dead and I have horrendous impulse control, but I've only made one feeble attempt at it.
I hope your family cuts you some slack Chris, or maybe it is that your vunerable and your stress threshold is low. And your son, I wish I were this young and invinsible again. Sounds exactly like youth and ADHD as I know it. What about some Ritalin in the mashed potatos and cereal???????? I'd make a terrible mother.
Benzos for sleeping. Sounds like a decent plan to me. I guess you've tried stimulants.
I'll keep praying for you Chris, no problem. My brother told me there is some kind of evidence (not quite scientific) that it works.
I keep thinking of you and hoping good things for you. Please rant all you like, Janice
the decent night sleep:
2 things that seem to help other than pills:
I run for a minimum of 20 minutes 4 hours before bed (I'm in good shape so you may want to walk fast)
1-2 hours before bed, I take a bath with Epsoms salts for 20 minutes (not a shower)
then drink a chamomile tea
the important thing for me is to have a ritual, but I'm sure you know all this. do the benzos!
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