Posted by kerry B on July 6, 2000, at 16:55:05
In reply to Re: Better tings » kerry B, posted by danf on July 6, 2000, at 6:27:44
> Hey Kerry,
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> me mum first decompensated when I was about 10. It was strange. I don't thing there is any way for kids that age to understand.
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> It is hard to say what the effect is. Have actually explored that quite a bit in regressive therapy & come to the conclusion that it is mainly a matter of her being gone from time to time in hospital. Perhaps that is where part of my anxiety comes from. Probably a seperation /abandonment neurosis.
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> Guess, I am lucky that my moods do not change that quickly. The panics are very infrequent & well controlled by the meds. Base anxiety is a bitch tho. I get the shakes & can't do much, write or hold a screwdriver. The beta blockers have helped that a lot. Much less tremor.
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> Guess we all must be different. My pdoc finds me strange. No episodic panic but shakes /tremor where I can hardly write, etc.
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> Oh well ? things are better & looking up.
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> Dx ? Anxiety, panic & depression.
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> Meds ? celexa, pindolol, & buspar ( just started buspar ) The celexa has worked pretty well. Was on zoloft last year & it did not work as well.
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> Courses ? several in pharmacology & neurophysiology, yrs ago.
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> You sound like it is a better day. Am glad for you.
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> One day at the time.
Hi Dan,
Thanks for sharing that with me! I am actually up early this-morning so as I can do this in peace. Feel a bit groggy though, but that will pass soon.
When I first became ill and kept going to hospital my son was 5. It was confusing for him as one morning, I was there but when he'd get home from school I was gone - to hospital.
From then on, he began putting on weight so now he is quite large for his age and he has a terrible time at school about it, kids picking on him so now he has developed an anger disorder and I blame myself for that.
He knows I am unwell again and I sit him down and explain it as best I can in the hope that he won't take it so hard but he is forever asking me if I will go to hospital again and I say NO!
I just wondered if I have caused this in him as he is such a sensitive boy. As you think, it could be the seperation neurosis although he came to visit me everyday.
I haven't heard of the meds you are on but they sound like they are helping you and that is great.
I have heard names and tried so many meds in the last five years, I don't know what is what any more!!! I am very interested in learning about them though. All I have is a small book but I think it is out of date now. Every time they'd give me something, I"d go straight to my book and look it up, sad thing was though, if I read it had bad side effects, I'd refuse to take it.
Now I'm being a good girl and not doing that and doing what I'm told, after all, they are the experts. Right? (sometimes I wonder though)!
Thanks again.........Kerry
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