Posted by Zannah on June 19, 2000, at 21:39:32
In reply to Calling in sick GUILT, posted by Kerry on June 19, 2000, at 11:05:42
> I just couldn't make it in today. Couldn't face my clientele...9 and 10 year olds (teacher here). ~~~~~~~~ Called my HMO this morning to try to get in to talk to someone...no appts. until July.~~~~~~~~~ Am I really sick? In the head, yes--so it's okay to call in sick, right?~~~~~~(snipped)
My dear Kerry~
YES! You are sick, 'ill' actually (the literal meaning of 'sick' is nauseated, vomitous, hurl-worthy, etc.!)
I can't tell you how deeply I relate to you on this subject. I have called in sick more times tham I wish to remember. DId I feel guilty~you bet!I also have waited til the roof fell in (psychologically speaking) before I allowed myself to understand the fact the I have (mostly untreated) mental illness.
Due to back problems, I was forced to quit my job a yr. ago. The herniated discs made my 'escape' feel legit.
But, deep down, I know that my mental illness is as much, or more, the reason I cannot walk out that door to hell each morning. And I liked my job, I just couldn't face the fear of having to speak and think and act F'ing NORMAL, day after day.And I feel deep (albeit perhaps, irrational) guilt over my 'weakness', on an almost daily basis. You are NOT alone!
Kudos to you, Kerry, for hanging tough with your job. I admire you for that, and I know you deserve that 'illness' day!
Sincerely~Zannah
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