Posted by medlib on June 1, 2000, at 17:23:56
In reply to Re: Grumpy day, depression downturn, or PMS? » Kath, posted by Noa on June 1, 2000, at 16:43:11
> Thanks, Kath. I had a better day yesterday, and today was fair, but hard. I am grumpy again. I *think* I would describe it as stressed, rather than more depressed, although I always do wonder if I am starting a downturn. I hope not. The stressful stuff sometimes just feels overwhelming and I feel like running away to hide from it. Today I found out I probably won't get full time hours when new contracts are in, as I had requested. I am not making ends meet with this arrangement, and not being able to pay the bills is very stressful, so it might mean that I spend part of my summer searching for a job, the prospect of which is also extremely stressful, especially given how fragile I still am.
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> The day started with me *falling*! I did a clumsy ankle turn, and in correcting my balance, I twisted the opposite knee, which is my weak spot, having been damaged from a serious injury about ten years ago, and operated on about 5 years ago, and then I fell altogether. It was a result of my messy, obstacle course of an apartment, as I have to sidestep the crap that has accumulated. I do this obstacle course all the time, half asleep even, but for some reason, I just mis-stepped and lost balance. I wasn't sure I'd be able to get up, but I did after relaxing there on the floor for about 5 minutes. My left knee and both ankles have been aching dully all day.
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> Plus, I seemed to have made a bit of a mess in a business arrangement with a friend, not communicating clearly and creating a conflict that needn't have been. I own this one--I miscommunicated and didn't state what I wanted and needed, was vague, etc., and so my friend, who was better at asserting her needs, went ahead and made arrangements that I have now realized are not in line with what I had hoped. So now, I have to deal with reworking this whole thing with this friend, while also dealing with another friend who is affected by the whole misunderstanding. I am not a businesswoman at heart. And it is probably a good idea to not do business with friends. Live and learn.
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> Then the news about the job (not getting full time hours), and to top it off, I tore my freshly cleaned and repaired skirt on the corner of a metal desk drawer--the kind of tear that cannot be repaired neatly.
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> So, today, this afternoon, I am really very very grumpy, like Alexander and the no good horrible rotten very bad day, to paraphrase the title of a classic children's book.
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> Harrummphhhhhh.
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Noa--What an absolute bummer of a day! You must be feeling a certain kinship with Job about now. Don't you think it's about time for a run of *good* luck?
Do you think you'll look for a supplemental job or an entirely different full-time position? There seem to be a lot more part-time and a lot fewer full-time positions available in most fields these days. Guess it's mostly benefits-related, but it sure doesn't make things any easier. When I see employment statistics, I wonder how many are employed full-time with benefits.
BTW, I tried to post a brief note to you a few minutes ago, and somehow I screwed up and it ended up listed as a link at the bottom of *your* last message. Guess I opened a page within a page. This is my 3rd or 4th minor mishap today--some days it's just best to go to bed early.
----a messing up medlib
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