Posted by Noa on May 30, 2000, at 19:04:13
I have been in a very grumpy mood all day, and was failry useless at work. In fact, I spent much of the day just catching up on my babble reading!
The source of my grumpiness is having to deal with some legal issues from a past event that was somewhat traumatic (not life-threatening or anything and nothing horrific, just mildly traumatic, if there is such a thing), but that most of the time I just avoid thinking about. Having to deal with this brings up lots of difficult feelings that make my heart feel heavy and stir up feelings of rage, powerlessness, loss. Sorry I can't be more specific, but you get the idea.
I'll be ok, though. Despite this heavy feeling, I have not been feeling like I am going to succumb to the vortex of depression and despair. Still, I wish I never had to feel any of these difficult feelings again. A little unrealistic, I know, but it is a wish.
Hopefully, I will have a decent night's sleep tonight, and be able to get back into the swing of things tomorrow. That will distract me once again so I don't have to be in touch with this messy crap until the next time the legal stuff surfaces again, which, hopefully won't be for a while.
I love having this refuge to come to, to connect with my babble buddies. Thank you.
poster:Noa
thread:35279
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