Posted by Cynthia M on May 16, 2000, at 14:09:31
In reply to Re: Thanks bob and Noa, posted by Noa on May 16, 2000, at 13:14:15
Noa- this is very interesting. I hve found that I have to have the CD player on before I cut. I go to the stereo and turn on a CD and then get the scissors and cut, It is all very ritualistic. I have been having a hard time this morning because I was in a hurry to cut before my husband got out of the shower so I didn't wait and watch the blood , like I usually do. I hurried and covered it up, now I am feeling odd about it, like I didn;'t do it right . My husband knows I am cutting but it distresses him so that Idon't like him to know i have done it. I just took a shower and scrubbed the cut area on my arm until all of the scabbing had come off. My phychologist wants me in a "day-treatment" type of program. I am hesitant to commiting my time to being a professional "mental patient" I use to do fun things like sew and bake, I desparately want to lose weight so I should be walking , I just feel so disorganized. I guess the only "ordered" patern I have is cutting..... I should get the book "Bodily Harm" tomorrow from Amazon.com I hope I am not expecting too much, just a miracle in a book. I guess time will tell.........Cyndy
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