Posted by Phil on May 8, 2000, at 22:47:39
In reply to Re: Couples Therapy: Me and My Disorder, posted by Noa on May 8, 2000, at 17:12:25
Can't babble too much tonight because my fear of the days ahead have really been just ripping me up. I'm doing my best to hang on. Besides the Big D, I have money problems that are putting the fear of God in me. It's not so much the lack of money but the lack of direction and purpose that could solve the problem.
When I was in therapy 5-6 years ago, I answered a questionaire about thoughts, beliefs and attitudes. It was one of my first assignments.
The only question I can remember was to complete the sentence,'Love equals_____. My answer...pain.
After all these years, my answer is still the same. Depression or not, I have a big issue with this question. I avoid love tenaciously. If someone says they want me to meet 'someone', I'll find a way around it.
I think, know, that's my issue. I think I am at a point that I can give love but damned if I know how to receive love. Was it Nazareth that so ear-achingly bemoaned,"Love Hurts"?
Anyway, I read somewhere recently-can't remember who said it,"I've only been in love once but I've stepped in it several times."Not looking for answers just ramblin'
Phil
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