Posted by quilter on February 25, 2000, at 23:29:58
In reply to Re: Feeling hopeless, posted by Noa on February 25, 2000, at 15:22:28
I have lived in this particularly painful part of hell more times than I can count. I wish I could give you a map of the way out but no such thing exists. I have learned that I hurt my loving husband more by my silence than by my words, and the walls we each built to protect the other were just another source of pain.
I have learned that hopelessness has a different face each time I meet it. I have learned that I must depend on the hopes of others (family, doctors, etc.) when I can find none of my own. I have found that affirmations seem like lies, but I can cling to the thought that "Now is not forever". Hopelessness is a part of who I am, a part of how I live, and it WILL kill me if I do not allow others to share the burden.
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