Posted by Sef on February 8, 2000, at 19:27:16
In reply to MY PERSONAL CELL IN HELL, posted by Cheryl on February 8, 2000, at 18:16:10
> Please someone out there relate to me. Please someone who is where I am at. Please relate to me. I have been off work for three weeks getting better. I have till Monday morning to be better. I am not better.I would rather die than go back there.
>The same thing happened to me, I was on short term disability from work and they gave me a month off, but when that month was nearing the end, I still was not well enough to return to work. I told my therapist that I had to have an extension. She contacted the human resources where I worked and they granted me another 3 weeks. Maybe your therapist can do the same for you. I was so deep into depression that it took 6 weeks for anti depressants to start working for me, I was about to give up, I didn't think anything or anyone could help me. Finally, when the meds did kick in it was a total miracle- I couldn't believe a pill could change the way I felt, mentally and physically, so dramatically. Are you on any medication?
>I am supposed to go to day patient treatment @ The same place I had inpatient treatment last week. This morning I decided that I would rather die than go there.
>If you are not happy with the therapists or the place you are going to - go somewhre else. It took going to a few different places for me before I found the right pdoc. If you go somewhere else, explain to them your situation and tell them you need an extension.
> I stayed Here @ home in my self made prison. They turned off the water I got it turned back on they turned off the electricity I got it turned back on. Now I have HOT CHECKS!!!!!I have to borrow money from mom and dad now.Then they can bail poor Cheryl, who is mentally ill and cant go to work out again. I had almost rather bounce the checks, Or as you guessed it , I had almost rather die.
>Don't feel guilty for letting your parents help you, I had to get help financially from mine too. Which do you think your parents would prefer, a dead daughter or helping you out? I personally believe that they would be devastated if you killed yourself and did not let them help you.
> I am hanging on by a thread here. That stupid hospital is not helping me. What it all boils down to is that my life sucks and I do not have the will power or gumption to do a damn thing about it.
>That was how I felt too, but seriously the right medication will give you back your will to fight and change your life. I know because that is what happened to me. The right med gave me back my ambition, the ability to enjoy things, the will to get out of bed, to get into the shower, to clean my apartment....to have a life again.
>Even if I did I think I would just rather die. I am sick of hospitals and drs and thearapists and meds and high hopes and empty promicises is there any person out there who is where I am at? Maybe we can be miserable together.
So was I until I found the right pdoc. Don't give up, there really is light at the end of the tunnel.
Cheryl
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