Posted by juniper on January 13, 2000, at 17:12:19
In reply to Re: plum's pain, posted by Plum on January 13, 2000, at 12:42:01
plum,
i know the hopeless feeling, but i can now look back at the times that i felt completely hopeless and see, rationally, that there were options i hadn't explored, and because of these options i should have still had some hope. but hope is not rational and when you feel hopeless you stop looking for any more options. and while you have tried a lot, and been through hell, you haven't tried everything.
do you have a friend who can, or is, help to support you in your search for some relief? someone who can make some calls or do some research when you are not feeling up for it?
one of the things i read last night mentioned acupunture...
what have you tried for sleep?
it seems to me like you are standing at a crossroads and are swaying as to whether you should continue to fight or just give up. i have no authority to tell you either way, but if you do give up, things will likely stay the way they are, and that is obviously not good.
please take care and continue to write.
peace,
juniper> Dear Juniper,
>
> Yes, I have had ay number of nerve blocks. The only
> one that worked was when the second surgery was done, they infused the open wound with marcane before the stitched it up. Then I woke up in the recovery room for the first fime in almost 5 years, the pain was gone. Completely gone. I started to cry, then had to explain to the nurses that I wasn't crying because I was In pain but because I was OUT of it. But I guess that's not something I can do again. I'm not sure this site isn't dangerous for me, because I have been trying to get to the stage where I will never again raise my hopes
> its too hard to have to realize again that whatever I thought was ging to work, didn't. Crying again. cant see thankyou
poster:juniper
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