Posted by Plum on January 12, 2000, at 4:35:43
In reply to Re: pain -neuropathy, posted by S. Suggs on January 12, 2000, at 4:20:45
I had surgery for cubital tunnel syndrome in 1994, and woke up from the surgery in excruciating pain that has never gone away. I had months of physiotherapyafter the surgery, then all kinds of tests where they stuck little needles in my arm and hand and ran electrical currents through them. The consensus seemed to be that I had "causalgia" which as far as I know simply means "burning pain". In November of 1998 I had surgery again on the nerve--this time by one of the best in the world.
(the retirement fund is gone...) No relief. I had handled it (I thought) pretty well until enough time had gone by after the second surgery that if it were going to improve, it would have happened. Now I have to lose all hope. It is never going to be any better than it is now, and nights like tonight--weeks like this week, for that matter--I really would rather be dead. If I get 2 hours sleep out of 24 that is a victory. I am now diagnosed with severe depression and have been off work since July. I want to work. I NEED to work. But I cry every day. I am getting weekly counselling, and I respect and admire my counsellor, but he can't be with me at 3:00 in the morning. Nobody can, I guess.
The nearest pain clinic is 150 miles away. I tried that in 1995 and 1996. One day off work every week for nerve blocks--didn't make any difference.
I had a hatchet in my hand the other day--was going to chop the thing off. I've about had it.My GP doesn't want to give me any more neurontin, because I want to go back to work and he says I can't work or drive until I get the dosages down. But if I lower the dosage of
Serzone to even 400 I end up sitting in the dark in my housecoat, crying most of the day.What was it Job said? Was it Job? "Curse God and die"? Sounds good to me.
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