Posted by Racer on May 26, 2006, at 23:58:30
In reply to I took a ride through the archives today..., posted by Racer on May 26, 2006, at 22:13:44
Actually, a short time later now, I find that I'm not at all OK about the whole reminder thing...
Instead, I'm ruminating on how horrible I was, that it really was all my fault, that they were right, etc.
A very small voice inside me is saying, "No, even if most of what they said about you really was true, the way they treated you was still very wrong."
But the louder voice really is sending me into a tailspin. I found myself trying to think of suicide plans today, because it just wasn't worth this much struggle, all the time, to get what seems like so very little.
Having done badly on a math final yesterday added a lot to it. If I couldn't even manage to keep my grade up in that class, what the [warm climate] use is it?
poster:Racer
thread:649159
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