Posted by Racer on May 20, 2004, at 11:42:01
In reply to Insomnia is sending me looopy, posted by NikkiT2 on May 18, 2004, at 7:26:57
I'm going through a major bout of insomnia, too. It really is lousy. At least I know it's largely untreated depression and a great deal of anxiety. If I didn't know that, it would be a lot harder to deal with.
And doesn't it just fry you, trying to be quiet for your husband to sleep when you're up and agitated? I'm waking most mornings between 4:30 and 5:30, after three to five hours of sleep -- on a good day. Then, Hubby wanders out of LumLand about 8:30ish, to find me p*ssed as all get out that he's been sleeping during the few hours in a day that I might be able to channel the agitation and get something done. Wanna chew him up and go sulk in the back of my cage.
As for your friends and family reacting to your part, well -- noa's response was the funniest thing I think I've heard in a month, and I like Bob's suggestion about a surprise party. (Bob, if I move to Michigan, will you invite me to your next party?) All I can add is that it sounds to me as though you do a lot of care-taking for them, historically, so they're expecting more of the same. That's my pattern, and it gets me so much grief. On the one hand, there are firestorms when I say no, on the other hand, I get eroded pretty badly by saying yes. So, major erosion either way, and it's not good. Can you say anything to these people, like, "Hey, Bro', the party is near my place because it's my party and I wanted it to be convenient for ME -- remember the first part?" Or, "Mumsy, where would you like us to put you during your visit? You can sleep in my bed with my husband and me, if you promise to keep your cold feet to yourself. Otherwise, all we have to offer is the closet shelf or the bathtub. Which would you prefer?" As for the invitees, well, you don't *have* to tell anyone who else is invited, in theory...
Good for your for having yourself a party. I wish I had thought to do something like that for 30. (Then again, I was in another depressive episode -- gaining 50+ pounds for a partial response on Paxil, along with the major sedation and the angst about turning 30. 40 wasn't nearly so hard as 30, by the way. Dunno why, but 40 was kinda nice in a way. 30 was really upsetting for me, too, so you're not alone.) Have you decided what kind of cake to have? That, after all, is the real priority...
Good luck with your party. I love parties, and think that even a partial response to anti-depressants and being able to go to a lot of parties, and give a good few, would do a lot more for my mood overall than the treatment I've received overall from this agency. Then again, parties when you're depressed are --- depressing.
Wishing us both good sleep, and envying you your upcoming party -- with guests YOU want to have there, and at the facility YOU choose for YOUR convenience!
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