Posted by Racer on January 27, 2004, at 17:37:46
OK, I guess I'm starting to feel better -- finally. I thought, since we're pretty quiet around here, I'd tell you all about it. You all know how wordy I can get, so I'm imagining you all groaning, "oh, no! She really will tell *all* about it! The horror! The horror!" (<<joke) (I hope)
Anyway, all of a sudden I feel as if I'm making progress with therapy! Yippee! Just yesterday, instead of just sitting there crying, I suddenly started the real, gulping sobs -- and talking about something that's been festering for a long time without me knowing about it. (That's just the background. This is where it starts to matter.) At the very end of the session, I said something, just offhand, that started resonating. I mean just banging away like a gong in my chest.
So, what did I do? Did I sit on my heinie and worry and chew at it? Well, yeah, I did, but I also called and left a message for my therapist, telling her something we'd touched on in the session was a bigger deal than I thought, and if she had a space, could she see me sooner? (Insert here: [mental image of Racer patting herself on the back] [secondary image of Racer pulling a muscle doing it so vigorously.]
So, we talked about it in an extra session, and I feel better. Here's the topic for discussion: which came first, the chicken or the egg? Did I make that call because I was feeling better? Or do I feel better because I made that call? Anyone else have any analogous experiences to talk about?
By the way, Ladies and Gents, you're a great audience. It's great to be back!
poster:Racer
thread:306167
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