Posted by CarolAnn on November 29, 1999, at 12:56:48
In reply to Non, je regrette..., posted by Adam on November 29, 1999, at 1:17:18
I have the same type of regret as well as the same type of anger. At 35 yrs old, I have alot in my life, but not nearly as much as I would have if I'd never suffered depression. I missed my whole late teen's, all my twenty's, and lots of my early thirty's. Consequently, it is very, very hard to accept the process of aging, having never gotten to "experience" my youth. I have to be extremely careful about even thinking of all my unfulfilled potential, because the anger is overwhelming, and increases my depression. It's all so unfair though, in my teen's people started raving about how "beautiful" I was, but I could never see it and truly thought myself fat(at 105lbs.) and ugly. The year after highschool I gained 65 pounds actually becoming fat and ugly, which started me on the yo yo dieting rollercoaster where I will probably be forever unless I find an AD that really works. You know, to live with the curse of depression is one thing, but what's worse is the knowledge of the incredible person I can never become and all the dreams that can never come true, because it's just too late!CarolAnn
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